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My life seemed to have mixed with contradictory sources. There was my childhood in a lower socioeconomic rural community in Utah, then my adolescence and young adulthood in upper middle-class San Francisco. I had a masculine father who was controlling and critical, and a feminine mother who was compassionate and affectionate. And there was always something inside that constantly vacillated between either building or destroying. I worked at some job since childhood and paid for twenty years of formal education after high school. I was athletic, scholarly and outgoing but suffered from a debilitating depression and anxiety that changed the course of my life more than once. Through that I married, raised three daughters, delivered almost 10,000 babies and rode my bicycle thousands of miles. But it was the psychological catastrophe that defined much of who and what I have become, and that journey was always inward beyond the notice of most all others. The work was, and is, the hardest I have ever done or will do. This path has led to my greatest revelations as well as precipitated prescription drug addiction and at times the desire to end my own life. All in all, it is who I am.